Angst
monocle_layton monocle_layton wrote in laytondressing
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[It's the sins and virtues plot! Imagine the utter joy of our beloved Prime Minister Monocle for having been blessed with so many wonderful virtues! He might even become a good person out of this.

And through this wonderful event, Monocle has found himself forced to compliment anyone who talks to him, instead of harping on about himself, like he usually does.]

What... what is this sheer madness...? I hope no one sees me like this...

[Come talk to him, if you want to feel good about yourself. :D]

You always have done before, even... though you knew it hurt.

...I just... I want to believe you, I do. But...

Because I don't say it directly, you can't?

And even if you did say it directly, I don't know if I'd be able to believe you.

Until you've seen me interact with everyone I could potentially betray you with? I'm sorry that you feel that's required...

It's not about seeing you interact with everyone. It's just... maybe I'll trust you eventually. For the moment, though... no.

Then I will try harder to gain your trust.

I don't deny that I have slept with others for political gain, but... there are other ways to go about that.

And... Luke...

[He's not quite sure what to say there.]

...if you mean the older one... he's gone. He has been for a little while.

I was wondering about him...

But I meant... -There's a new Luke. I don't believe he is the one from my world, but he is similar. In a very unsettling way.

...no.

Lukes are worse. I can't... not Lukes. Any of them.

I can't deny that I have... emotions towards the boy. Not sexual, if that is your concern, but... I can't stop caring for him, regardless of if you want me to or not.

...I can... cope with caring. Caring doesn't... work for me in the same way. That's why I need the sex. It's the closest I have to being able to care properly.

I don't believe that. If you didn't care genuinely then you wouldn't be trying to stop me from sleeping around.

Yeah, well... it doesn't work right in my head. So.

You can't win that way, Clive. Just accept that you're wrong.

I'm not wrong. I'm... not saying that I don't care. Or that I don't come across that way. But caring doesn't... I can't understand it, in my mind.

Very well.

[Looks away, sighing.]

So, that's why I need the sex.

I'll give you it if you need it.

But will you give it to anybody else?

N-no.

And if that's true, then... then that's all I'd ever ask for.

I will try to give you that, then.

The best we can hope for, huh?

At the moment, yes.

You think there'll be better to hope for sometime, then?

?

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